The Responsibility Series: Waking up

I had an epiphany once where I realized the correlation between depression and one’s sense that he lacks control over his life, and between happiness and the sense that he has control over it. imgres

And this ties into this conversation about responsibility because taking personal responsibility is the pivot between the sense that the universe acts autonomously: that you are just a kite in the current of her schizophrenic temper, battered by circumstance…and the sense that you are the kite runner yourself, working with nature to choreograph each motion of your life. Continue reading

Waking up

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To me the term “waking up” means becoming aware of the sentience of the universe. It is happening to me in stages. It’s like the truth is being peeled back from a rosebud pedal by pedal until one day it will stand before me an open blossom. My first wakeup call was subtle and gradual. It happened when I transferred from Clemson University to George Washington University and met Continue reading

Why it’s Important to talk about Taboo Stuff

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“If you can imagine it, it’s real” said Pablo Picasso. If you can feel something, it’s real, I might add. I am doing what I believe in, by writing this blog. To censor myself, to write about things other than what I care about and to deny my readers the content about which I am ardent is to defeat the purpose of this blog entirely. This blog is about expanding consciousness. It is about the evolution Continue reading

The Video Game Analogy

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Stale out of college, it has been high time for too long now that I “leave the nest.” As I stand on its precipice about to take flight I find myself paralyzed with fear. For I know my personal standard- that I could not live with myself having attempted anything less than my full potential. And as my dream lies in a line of work so outrageous and foreign as shamanism, Continue reading

The Problem with Psychedelics

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In retrospect, I realized an inherent problem with psychedelics. Although they were effective at waking me up, and making me starkly privy to my self-deception and to worldly corruptions, they do not provide an ever-open portal to these “truths.” I cannot call such insights truths because I do not have access to them all the time. I do not know them from first-hand Continue reading