When I started grad school for counseling psychology three years ago I started having all these dreams about pooping in public. Someone was always poking their head out from above the adjacent stall to talk to me, or there was no stall door at all, or the door was so short you could see everything but about a foot of my torso. What I took away from these dreams was that I was doing so much inter-personal processing in my training that was exposing so much of what for years I had kept hidden from others… Continue reading
The ironic thing is that we look for evidence to validate our notion that we are bad. We see someone look at us funny and say, I knew it… nobody likes me. We think this somehow keeps us humble (we dare not think too highly of ourselves!) By putting ourselves down in this way, we think we are keeping ourselves closer to God. Continue reading
Hi Everyone. The following is an academic paper I wrote about Schizophrenia (it is not too dry… I promise!) It proposes an alternative view of the disorder than that which we are most accustomed to in our medical society. I am also open to and WELCOME any feedback, especially from people who have experienced psychosis/ spiritual emergence, or have someone close to them who has gone through this, as I have been in neither position myself. I think this way of holding mental illness is the most humane and harm-reducing way of doing so, considering extreme states are such a mystery in the first place. Yet I am open to the possibility that I may be romanticizing the experience of psychoses, and that the experience of going through it or being with someone going through it is much harder to navigate than I make it out to be. Enjoy… Continue reading
Please give us beings on Earth the strength and insight to introspect. So that we may make an honest evaluation of ourselves. So That we may identify the internal causes of our suffering and discontinue them, so we may come out of our misery. May we learn mindfulness so that we may see the beauty Continue reading
Attaining our potential is a matter of allowing nature to take her course within us. I talked about going head-to head with ego in the previous post and to clarify how I reconcile “allowing” and “going head-to-head”, let me Continue reading
As one can gather, the awareness that arises from introspection comes with great responsibility. Knowing that we can convert ourselves to healthier, more proactive versions of ourselves, we feel an impending pressure to do so. And we soon discover how much work this undertaking entails, which can be quite daunting.
I was watching The Biggest Loser Continue reading
I had an epiphany once where I realized the correlation between depression and one’s sense that he lacks control over his life, and between happiness and the sense that he has control over it.
And this ties into this conversation about responsibility because taking personal responsibility is the pivot between the sense that the universe acts autonomously: that you are just a kite in the current of her schizophrenic temper, battered by circumstance…and the sense that you are the kite runner yourself, working with nature to choreograph each motion of your life. Continue reading
Joe who is presently educating himself on the art of Tantra was telling us that the Tantrics believe STDs can only spawn from sex that one should not have. “Wrong” sex not as an objective term but as a subjective standard. It is something I know all too well, having engaged in many instances that I knew Continue reading
To me the term “waking up” means becoming aware of the sentience of the universe. It is happening to me in stages. It’s like the truth is being peeled back from a rosebud pedal by pedal until one day it will stand before me an open blossom. My first wakeup call was subtle and gradual. It happened when I transferred from Clemson University to George Washington University and met Continue reading
“If you can imagine it, it’s real” said Pablo Picasso. If you can feel something, it’s real, I might add. I am doing what I believe in, by writing this blog. To censor myself, to write about things other than what I care about and to deny my readers the content about which I am ardent is to defeat the purpose of this blog entirely. This blog is about expanding consciousness. It is about the evolution Continue reading